Running to You

As I get older and mature I realize I am not the same as I used to be; some in good ways, and some in bad ways. I watch American movies, talk shows and TV serials a lot, and somehow it makes me to be more open-minded. You may say being open and open-minded is a good thing, but I see myself going off-track and if I don't get back soon, I will numb myself. I used to have a strong foundation of what is wrong and what is right; but now all things seem bias. Couple of years ago, I could say gay and lesbian is a totally wrong thing. But now gay and lesbian are all over the streets and movies. Slowly but surely, I become "open" and tend to see it as a normal thing. 

Needless to say, I were at Christian community for over 17 years before I moved to Singapore 2 years ago. I am at the real world now. It's all up to myself to guard myself up and filter things you want to stuck into your head. Environment is something that has an enormous effect for you and yet you do not have any control of it. Being said so, the problem is not my surroundings, but me. 

Seems like I've been away from God for quite a time. Well, I pray, come to church every Sunday, I do good; but I am far from God and it's a scary thing. I was a back slider and I need to slide back to God. I never want to be apart from Him ever again.

Being close to God will be my guard from this world. I watch Glee more than I listen to sermon, I memorize movie quotes rather than Bible verses. That is the problem.

So, I decided to slide back to Him, to make time worshiping Him, reading Bible, or just listening to sermon podcast. I've been through a lot, it's been ups and downs, I was a little off-track but now I'm back.